On those halcyon afternoons, to the world a little boy smiled, for he knew, on the TV, superman would triumph the evil one more time; for he knew, next time he would get an excellent score if he studied diligently; for he knew, he could grow as high as Michael Jordan if he kept playing basketball; for he knew, impossible was nothing as the advertisement indicated. He knew them for sure.
For him, success only desired those like Beethoven, who, with dedication and resolution, aimed at what they expected, worked zealously without exhaust, and grasped the spirit of perseverance. For him, the bliss of success was already there; the only problem was: he need experience the whole, including those strenuous, parts of it.
Then the boy gradually turned out who I am now.
A few months ago, I vigorously looked for an internship on weekends in a bank. Having called a bank’s officer, hopefully expressed my reasons and advantages, and not received an absolutely disappointing answer, I went to that bank on Saturday only to be informed those managers weren’t at office. Next Monday, I carefully dressed myself and ambitiously yet somehow fearfully went to that bank again. Pressing the 30 bottom in the elevator, I was so nervous that I must forcibly compel myself to smile. At reception desk, I passionately demonstrate my inclinations, as if she would help me call someone in charge other than smile hypocritically. Immediately after I left that bank, I called that officer again and under my ardent request, he agreed to interview me 3 days later. Brainstorming my mind, asking all my friends for advice, researching all the sources, I formulated a plan that, if achieved successfully, could increase deposits in this bank by, at least, 300,000$. On that morning, somber as the sky was, I faithfully, for the third time, went to that bank. After optimistically waiting for 10 minutes, a general manager came to that cozy meeting room. However, without sitting down, he began the conversation directly with “let me talk to you briefly”. The regulations, my age, my education level, my…numerous reasons to reject me. As for my plan, he said it’s not his responsibility to make specific market strategies.
Hardly could I explain anything before he finally politely said good luck next time to me.
Apart from melancholy mood, I thought critically whether my endeavors and determinations desired no more than such 10 minutes, whether there were far more things beyond human’s power of persistence and fortitude, whether I should change my philosophy.
Now, albeit the difficulties, whether naturally or socially, physiologically or mentally, while permitting me to understand the world more maturely, make me cast doubts on my belief, the impetus ignited by my childish creed has not yet faded from my mind. After all, I have strived for my best, enhanced my ability and experienced the thrill on the journey, whether splendid success or unfortunately lose, let god dispose, whatever, I have no regret to myself.

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